Time and tide wait for no man…

Ever wondered what this meant?  I have pondered this many times and each time it comes back to the same thing, dont stand still things will pass you by.

I am great at procrastinating.  I could do it as an Olympic sport and quite easily gain a gold.  My life is full of missed opportunities because I wanted to wait and see if… or I wondered whether… The point is I stopped too long and eventually missed the bus.

I envy those people who fly into things with some sort of abandonment of the consequences.  The only times I have done this have resulted in failure – and I dont handle this well so I dont try again.

 I think its time to step off the diving board again and for the first time in ages be someone who goes for it full throttle.

When did we stop dreaming?

I was sat whilst on holiday listening to my two nephews speaking about their dreams.  They were so excited by what the future held for them even if that was limited to the next 10 minutes.  I thought as I listened ‘At what age did I lose this?’

 At what age did the reality of life step in and remove any molecule of dream from my life replacing it with doubt, worry, responsibility, hassle etc…?

I wish I knew because then I could warn these two and say hold onto to what you dream.

Over the last couple of years I have tried to fulfil some of my dreams that became stagnant regrets over the course of my life.  As a result I now have some qualifications in Archaeology (got an A on Thurs in my AS – very chuffed) and I am about to start a writing course over the next few weeks.  Yet something still feels like its missing. 

I guess you never know how strong the feeling of regret is until you have it.  It seems to intensify as the years go on and the point at which you made the decision that caused the wrong road to be taken goes from being a pin prick of light to a fully blown WWII searchlight.

I have chosen to do a writing course because I belive each of us has some thing to say.  Somewhere in every person is a book or set of poems or life experience waiting to come out – you just needed to search deep enough.

I have come to the conclusion over the past week that we all still have our dreams inside us.  They are tucked away and locked up, hidden beneath the rubbish of everyday life.  Every so often they pop out and remind us they are there. 

Often they come out with regret chasing after them.  In that case they become lost under a stream of missed opportunities and we push them back down under the life we now have.

Just occasionally, however, they come out alone.  When they do we are transformed into children and young people once more.  A glazed look and smile will signify we are somewhere where the world cant touch us.  We are lost in the hazy days of fun and freedom where we can do anything and all things are possible.

When this happens we need to remember the feeling and hold onto it.

Dreams dont come and go you see…they remain waiting for us to fulfil them. wishing us to become what we once wanted to be.

The next step is in our hands…